Denial

It has been quite some time since my last blog. This is a new one and titled “fyi5” I have decided to go with the number five theme for several reasons, mostly because I like it.

I have recently become a father for the first time. I was not blessed to come into fatherhood easily. As a matter of fact my wife and I were in the middle of some very rough times in our marriage when we found out. I remember it as if it were this morning. She came into the guest room (where I had been sleeping for the past few weeks) on my birthday, March 4 and woke me up with a test in hand to say “Happy Birthday, by the way, we are having a baby”. My life changed a couple months later when I heard the heartbeat for the first time. It never truly registered up until that. After finding this out many things changed. I had been an active member of my church, visible on stage both services every week and participating in a wonderful small group on Sunday evenings. There I met, and re-met some of my closest friends. But I digress. Here we are months and months later after several hardships still together, and I love her more than ever. I have a new found appreciation for the woman she is, and everything she does, as well as now more so because I see her as a mom instead of just a woman. Situations in life rarely come across the way we wish they would, and few have happened the way “we” planned. So with that brief introduction out of the way I wanted to begin my new blog with this.

The bible tells us in Matt.10:13 that if we deny Jesus in front of our peers, he will in turn deny us in front of the Father. I have been terrified of my friends for almost two years now. I made decisions to turn my life around when my wife and I decided to begin the church-search. And once we found one (SCC) I began to feel the need to be open about my faith. It is very difficult for me. I have friends and family of all beliefs and orientations, ranging from : atheists, agnostics, straight & gay, of all colors and ages. I recently discovered something about myself, the reason I fear my friends is because hey know the real me. Sure I see 500+ people on any given Sunday that hear my voice blended with the large band and several vocalists. They see me at the occasional Church event. They visit my family in times of crisis. They call, text, and email me. They see nearly all of my life on Facebook. But the intimate part of me has always been private for the most part. In truth, at times I have a foul mouth, at times I am not whatsoever a nice person, etc. I feared them because they knew my flaws and habits. Today I learned that when someone is a real friend they will respect you regardless of your differences.

Do not let your faith be shaken by the scowls on “friends” faces when they hear about it. Be you, and if in fact they are a real friend, they will still love you just as much as before you professed your faith.

-Chris

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2 Responses to “Denial”

  1. cw05 Says:

    “Other than the part about recently becoming a father, that could have been me writing this! But I probably wouldn’nt have put it as well as you… 🙂 Well said!!”

    “very touching….”

    “Chris you are such an intelligent man and remember we are all flawed and you are right….your friends love you flaws and all. Not despite them”

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